There are some lessons I keep having to learn over and over again.

This week has been one of  serious decluttering, cleaning, and organizing.

Inevitably, every time this happens, I run across something that truly surprises me!

This time it was some journals filled with my musings from 2008. As I flipped through and glanced at the entries I was horrified to discover I’m still struggling with a lot of the same things. Relearning the same lessons.

REALLY? I’ve read so many books since then, been to counseling, prayed and meditated, learned so many lessons…how can I still have the same problems? 

And then it hit me….

I do a lot of writing things down but not a lot of living things out.

Ouch. That hurt. 

Once I recovered a bit from that shock I started to see my cleaning and decluttering in a new light. Instead of just getting rid of things, I started asking myself to get rid of habits.

So as I’ve read and meditated this week I’ve tried to resist the urge to underline obsessively or take pages of notes. Because filling up another notebook isn’t going to change my life. Only my choices can do that.

I’m choosing to change and actively act like the person I want to become…instead of expecting magic to happen because I read a book or attended a seminar.

I must say, It’s a freeing (and scary) feeling…and for that I need HIM every hour...